Last night, I cried for the first time since going back on anti-depressants. It felt good. It wasn't a "pain ripping my heart out, I want to die" cry. It was just a good, healthy, normal cry. This afternoon, I cried again. A different reason, but still a healthy cry. I think I am finally starting to stablize my emotions. It's taken a long time, but I'm starting to feel normal and sane again.